Craziness.

*jus need a hand to hold. jus need that somebody.

its your tenderness thats gonna make it right.

Falling in love with love.

Its been a tough december 2009.

Not only did I hurt myself, I hurt the one whom I love deeply.
In fact, Im just hurting the ones tat I love.

I trusted the wrong friend(s) with my various issues which were in fact minor in the very beginning but as they were blown out of proportion due to mis-interpretation and had factual events being twisted, the minor issues became major issues that I had to deal with alone. Yeah.. yeah.. Miss Joycelyn Foo thought she was alone and that the entire world had owed her tonnes then. Or proly.. she thought she was alive to rot alone in dis world. For some of you who know Miss Foo well definitely are aware that she is a thinker who has a tendency to overthink and complicate matters in her own ways. Right on?

So what her friend said.. She believed without confronting.. no no.. without clarifying - (a better word) the parties involved. Looking back right now, Im not only angry with myself for being open with a person whom I had little knowledge of and shared my dissatisfaction and problems with but also for the fact that I had placed my trust in the wrong person and with that person too. Even when Im truly happy which I was indeed happy.. on hearing some stuff, I became very upset and down. In short, I nearly singlehandedly destroyed my relationship with Milo Dino.

See..other than already being a super pessimistic human being, always feeling inadequate, feeling insecure, feeling lost, feeling inferior n bla bla bla.. I'll definitely overlook the good of the many li things in my life. Its no doubt that I'll fall into the pit of disbelief. Anyways, its definitely not the first time I hear from another and then start making judgements on another person without clarifying and eventually initiated a brkup. This is what happens when one has no faith in the things that she does or she owns.

Thankfully, baby held on. In fact, he was very patient with me. Yes.. we have our individual's likes and dislikes about one another but I guess our differences are some stuff that kinda kept us together to date. Unique what. One of a kind. He's decisive. patient. generous. optismistic. protective. faithful. a very loyal friend. aint that judgemental. definitely not a thinker. diligent. contented happy person. my lover. my big head, big body baby. Alright.. He's not perfect. But since I chose him to be my beau and decided to be with him.. I've gotta love his evil twin too eh? n of cuz.. vice versa. To deal with sucha girlfriend is hardwork. Trust me. You wont want to have a girlfriend like me guys.. You'll prolly die from having a gf whom'll cry for an entire month cuz of a bad haircut, a future problem or jus for a dollar.

I tugt to love was a very complicated matter but to him.. its so simple up to the point I've gotta to kp questionin him.. are you sure jus by doing all those stuff'z enough to show that I care and love him. He still assured me yes. Of cuz.. He hates it when I start asking tonnes and tonnes of questions. n I love repeating myself all the time? haha..Mind me.. I've gt a huge head but probably in it contains a brain which is pea-sized.

Another point to note..
Im glad that I've gt worthy close friends around me that I could lean on for advice or simply for a listening ear. They never.. never for once left me to deal with my life alone. Im sure these are the friends whom will back me up and support me in good and bad times.

Birthday at the zoo was good even when I entered the wrong toilet. hahah.. I entered the male toilet! whoohoo! I dont even know la! I had fun on my birthday with Milo Dino. It was also our 4yrs of togetherness. Time flies eh.

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I duno if I shud go confront my friend rgd blowing matter out of proportion.. but adding sugar and spice and evry other things not nice is jus bad. Way bad peeps. Im angry and disappointed. Tough lesson. Learnt it the hard way one more time. At least I know I need to be mindful of the stuff that i share with and whom do I share my stuff with. Even God tells me so. Madness. God even ask me to embrace wisdom and lean not on my own understanding. Goodness gracious. The word of the Lord is indeed popping out of nowhere as I read my bible.. Madness.. But well oh well.. when you allow God to speak.. Unbelievable.

God told me Im His wonderful and beautiful creation and He even sends people to tell me Im one too. Need I ask for more? No. Right now, I know Im secured and Im loved. Its enough. I was not contented but now I am. Thankfully.

Great. My eyes are failing me now. Im feeling sleepy once again. I jus hope I could wake up in time for driving later.

Wait before I go.
I passed my theory exam! whoohoo! So I shud believe I can do it! Baby even congratulated me and reminded me that I can do it! Yeah.. my baby makes me happy. My piano teacher brought joy by texting me that i passed and made my day. Heavenly papa makes me happy. Meeting lynn in sch makes me happy. Oh well.. today's a brand new day. I hope it makes me happy too!

Im beat. I really need to go. adios fellas!

Ah yes! I bought a new toothbrush too! ^O^

2010 is a good one. a great one.


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Being in love takes hard work and commitment.
I dont want you to do it alone. I'll take on dis task with you.
Anyways, 2 givers is definitely better than 1.


*i dont dream of fairytales anymore. i jus want my prata.

Tame the DramaQueen

She needs to count to ten before she speaks.
She needs to stop stoning and overthink.



I love becuz I do.




* no more nonsense.

Thoroughly Speechless.

7,Seven Should b a good number.
But it aint.




*Dream? I reckon not.

Shower Needed.

Up and still awake at 6.42am is ridiculous.
The very last time i did dis kinda stuff was probably on the day of FYP submission.
Kept my clothes but damn.. some aint dry yet. Grggghh...
Whipped up a li something.
2 more dishes to go. Hopefully successful duh.

Those 3 cranky fellows at the chalet are crazy.
Bugged me to take their advice.
Asked stupid qns.
Drunk. Definitely.
Some interesting friends I've gt.

Celebrated Jeremy and Joel's Birthday.
Finally 18.
Blessed Birthday My Li Brothers!
Love ya both even in times of wrestle and quabbles.
Even more when the both of you were younger.
Oh whatever.

Im awake without even yawning once.
Unbelievable.
Period.

Heading dwn to the market to grab some remaining ingredients in bout 5mins.
Kept my laundry but have yet to fold them.

N so gonna read the Word a li more. Later.



*the li gift.

Remodification

Joycelyn havent been giving her all in evrything that she does lately.
Or perhaps.. its been months.
Time for a change.
A radical one.

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Reading the bible has never made me so at peace with my inner being.
Indeed, its food for my soul, my mind, my heart n my entire being.
I've been a christian since the day I was born yet I did not make full use of the bible until recently. I wonder what had prompted me to pick up the bible. Prolly the Holy Spirit I reckon.

Im still learning how to b a better person for me and for the people around me. Related or Not.
The Word will definitely b able to guide me thru this entire process of Change.
Especially so when I've been pretty down lately.
Self-condemnation? Yes, I did.
Insecure wreck? U bet.
Faithless? Yes, I was.

So much said.
Im feeling much much better to date.
Im happy.
Because His Word heals me.
He taught me. Still teaching me.
To b His daughter who shines with each step she takes.

Its not how much I recieve
But, how much I choose to give.

I always tugt that I'd already gave enugh to the people around me. He made me realised that its never gonna be enugh. He tugt me what love really meant with the various chpts in the Word. I was once again reminded of the famous 1 Corinthians 13:4-8.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily-angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

I pray to be His daughter who doesnt portray her beauty with outward adornment but that comes from her inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who out their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. Like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham n called him her master.
N His li princess who does what is right and fear Him.

Remodification. Its wat I need.
Gladly accept this for its gonna benefit me for my entire life.
n the people around me.


*believe.

Bodyguards & Assassins

Jus came back from movie with milo, chen, huaihui, desmond, lionel and roy.
We caught bodyguards and assassins at AMK cathay.
I love action movies. yeap.
Go catch it peeps. i give it 3 stars outta 5.

When She Cries

When her tears flow.
Its bad news.

Dont make her cry.
For its real this time around.


*July Vs Dec